Would you call me selfish?

I tend to do my best thinking in the shower.  A rush of inspiration comes to me and I'm faced with the dilemma of where to place my focus.  Do I rush to my desk dripping wet in order to write down my thoughts or do I complete the task at hand?  I've often chosen the former, but from time to time I decide to just let my thoughts ride out and keep them mine, never to be recorded nor shared.

Living in this city leaves you with few opportunities to be completely alone.  Each day you are surrounded by thousands of people, most of whom you don't know and are bombarded by sounds and smells, all of which make it nearly impossible to be alone with your thoughts.  You are so hyper aware of your environment that you can't concentrate or hear anything that's happening inside your head.  Too much is required of you.  For me, the shower is my time of solitude away from society and obligations where I can sift through my thoughts, work through my mental garbage and in some ways find a sense of enlightenment.  It's where I do my mental yoga.  While I always somewhat regret not writing everything down or having someone to share my ideas with at that moment, I sometimes enjoy keeping it as my own.

So many of us have a tendency to overload our lives with social interaction, entertainment and work that we completely lose sight of ourselves.  It is crucial to take these moments of quite introspection to get back in touch with what's happening within your own universe.  I have sought counsel from various professionals, confided in friends,  and taken advice from mentors but I find it is the time I dedicate to myself that leads me to true sense of understanding.  Sometimes you have to be selfish, because its the time you spend alone that actually develops your real identity, not the people and the stuff that encircle you.  Find a place of solitude, turn off the tv, take out your earplugs, put down the book and take the time to just listen to yourself.